I woke up today at around 6:00 AM, unsure what stirred me. After a brief, silent prayer, my hands somehow reached LinkedIn. I have thought about uninstalling that app more times than I can count but how unserious will that make me look since I am supposed to be actively looking for a job. As I scrolled through the homepage, a job listing caught my eye, one that I am more than qualified for. I saved it and continued scrolling. Everyone on that platform seemed to be doing amazing things and was full of those “I am happy to announce” moments.
For a minute, I almost got sucked into that all-too-familiar spiral of “What exactly am I doing with my life?” But instead, I turned to my daily devotional, The Word for Today (you can find it here). Ironically, today’s title was “Live in the here and now.” It hit me right where I needed it. Lately, I have felt a little dissatisfied – like being “just a mummy” and running a home is not enough. But the devotional reminded me to embrace the present, and a conversation with my SO later reaffirmed that this season of life is valuable, too.
After what felt like a million years (laughs), we finally dropped off my little girl at kindergarten. She was thrilled to wear her ladybug costume, one that I made for her. Score: Mama – 1, Dissatisfaction – 0. Next, I took a stroll to pick up some clothes for both kids. I brought my little boy along for some fresh air, I felt the spring sun would do him good. On the way, I called my mum, and we got so caught up in some good old gossip that I almost forgot I had somewhere to be! When I finally reached the store, everything looked so adorable. As usual, I bought more than I initially planned to because who can resist cute kids’ clothes, especially for girls?
Back at home, I got down to cooking and laundry, intending to sneak in some time for my Python class on Codecademy. But between feeding and playing with my little boy, the Python class never happened. Time management failure? Maybe. But that is mum’s life.
By 3:30 PM, my daughter was back from kindergarten, and my day officially shifted into high gear. As soon as she walked through the door, the demands started, quickly followed by her typical wails. It is almost 8:00 PM now. The family is finishing up dinner, and I am trying to wrap up this reflection before grabbing a bite myself. This mama needs to fuel up before another night of breastfeeding.
